Requiem for Summer'19

- finally making new apartment feel like home;
- enjoying new Brooklyn life with C;
- learning to have honest conversations at workplace;
- having date nights with movies, oysters and feeling the lightness;
- Friday margs:
- learning not to settle and appreciate myself;
- spending time with family and enjoying the presence of tiny little humans;
- taking a big official step in life that now opens the door for more traveling and ability to make a change;
- being inspired by a filmmaker who was so sincerely grateful that it was the best satisfaction from my work I've ever felt;
- exploring Fire Island;
- learning how to clam, eating the freshly caught and steamed ones;
- finding the perfect linen dress;
- getting a job offer from one of the biggest media companies;
- learning to figure out what exactly do I want and what is important to me;
- being brave and openly asking my mentor for advice;
- doing first ever photoshoot for friends;
- visiting my favorite Rockaway Beach;
- going on the roof to check out the sunset and being greeted by the huge kind dog which made the whole experience even better;
- celebrating Dad’s 60th birthday;
- protecting my mind from negative thoughts and panic attacks;
- not taking photos as much and feeling guilty about it;
- binge watching “13 reasons why” and discussing the suspects with Nastya;
- being buzzed on C bday and enjoying Washington Square Park performance;

short version: Half way down the cliff no way up no way back






Requiem for Spring'19

- taking 12 plane rides, 8 of which happened in the last 3 weeks;
- seeing my dearest friends and realizing HOW MUCH I miss them and how grateful I am for having them;
- struggling with insomnia, spiraling thoughts and anxiety attacks;
- sobbing during the wedding of my best friend when seeing her father walking her down the aisle;
- remembering all the good times we spend together with Ira to prepare for the best wedding toast I’ve ever written;
- showing C. where I grew up;
- eating shawarma at 2 am at Komarovka;
- being proud of my Mom for passing a tough exam;
- being grateful to my Dad, who is willing to help me at any time no matter what;
- moving out from the place where I spent my last 4 years;
- moving in with C. into an apartment of my dreams;
- having wonderful dinner night at Vikulia’s place - a time that was filled with joy and pure happiness of us being all together again;
- going to physical therapy;
- singing 6-2-6 Bedford Avenue… at the Drums concert;
- celebrating 1st birthday of my sweet baby niece;
- sewing my first ever tote bag;
- traveling to Google I/O;
- eating freshest oysters at the fish market in Catania;
- making Aperol the drink of the trip;
- meeting the sweetest Sicilian Airbnb host, who baked us pastries and told us we are young and beautiful;
- visiting hospital twice;
- getting little surprises from C.
- loosing my wallet a day before the trip and finding it in the middle of the street in a rainy Brooklyn night;
- singing to Bob Marley songs in an Uber in Mountain View;
- trying to see the dearest people at least for few minutes;
- saying a lot of goodbyes;
- listening to new Vampire Weekend album;
- sneaking in for coffee to meet with one of the best mentors;

Short version: унесет в моря мою печаль я буду здесь я буду помнить

Requiem for Winter '18/'19

- traveling to PNW and showing C. the Pacific Ocean;
- being surrounded by love of my friends from all over the world on my birthday;
- seeing my sweet baby niece for the first time, playing games with Musa and spending time with my brother and his family;
- dealing with ankle injury and consequences;
- visiting turtle hospital;
- seeing Seattle Seahawks football stadium from our AirBnB apartment;
- staying in the apartment that belongs to Seattle Hospital surgeon;
- presenting a roadmap in a meeting with leadership;
- relaxing at home during Christmas break and having friends over;
- spending the last sunset of 2018 and first sunrise of 2019 at the Pacific Ocean;
- meeting a stranger with 2 dogs whose names are Lola and Arnold and walking a block with him and getting to know funny facts about his well behaved furry friends;
- seeing Olya Stan after so many years;
- making little surprises;
- getting a response from Ed Templeton;
- spending lazy relaxing days with friends;
- riding a red Mustang in a passenger seat;
- High Line hotel surprise stay;
- suffering from allergy reaction;
- traveling to Albany and meeting C. friends;
- finding my dog alter ego - Lola the old pug;
- going through tough time at work;
- checking out Brooklyn boroughs on the weekends;
- John Maus concert;
- meeting my old coworkers and feeling inspired;
- treating myself with haircut;
- remembering how to use sewing machine;
- learning to compromise;

Short version: Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me